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sorry i havent been on as of late (warning: not a cry for attention) |
GothThug {C?}
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Joined: June 29, 2005
Posts: 2932
|  Posted: 2007-02-15 18:55
Over the last 9 or so months i've been experiencing symptoms of depression and stuff, and it hit me hard sunday night, i bought 5 boxs of twinkies stuff i wouldnt normally get but i did, and i've been sleeping later hours getting up in the middle of the night watching Depressing Goth Oriented Movies, having thoughts of Suicide.....
My Clanmate Padma who works with at risk kids has helped me through the tough times in DS and now, i am getting some help starting next week, im going to see a counselor and hopefully i'll be out of this mess, The reason i havent been on as of late is because of this....
I've been in the hospital under suicide watch, I overdosed on my pain Medication last wednesday, and from what i was told the depression started on February 1st....see i dont normally have clinical depression but usually when people are alone for so long they start to have these kinds of Feelings and i HONESTLY need help, just leave comments of encouragement cause god knows, i need it 
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_x$witchBladex_ [1.480 Fanboy]
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Joined: February 26, 2003
Posts: 849
From: Upstate New York
| Posted: 2007-02-15 19:01
Not something we need to know?
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Glimmer
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Joined: February 05, 2006
Posts: 54
From: Hertfordshire
| Posted: 2007-02-15 19:07
Get it sorted Goth, only you can do it. Depression is a difficult thing to conquer, do stuff you like to do, not what others want to do. Think of yourself for a change.
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-Spyros Kat-
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Joined: October 29, 2003
Posts: 41
From: Hampton Bays, NY
| Posted: 2007-02-15 19:11
I love you Goth, you should come stay with me and be my mate, <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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Enterprise
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Joined: May 19, 2002
Posts: 2576
From: Hawthorne, Nevada
| Posted: 2007-02-15 19:25
*hands twitch*
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Okay, im trying very hard here not to um..
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Hope you dont die 'n stuff.
-Ent
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Supertrooper
Marshal
Pitch Black
Joined: March 18, 2004
Posts: 1895
From: Maryland, U.S.A
| Posted: 2007-02-15 19:39
I'm not even going to say anything more then this..
Go get help.
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[2006] - Codex09
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Joined: August 16, 2006
Posts: 187
From: Sydney Australia
| Posted: 2007-02-15 20:14
Goth for 1 person you sure have a lot of issues, injuries etc happening.
My suggestion to you is that you go and seek some sort of professional help for this problem because I think you are in urgent need of professional help for this and some of your other problems.
Also I think it is a good idea that you have been staying away from the DS lobby as I have seen you get yourself into so much trouble in the lobby and ingame that it is not funny.
You know there was a stage there when I started to think that you were crazy or something as you were coming out with a different problem that ou had every second day, now after thinking about it for a while I believe that all of these tings you have said you have had wong with you and have had done to you is some sort of grab for attention.
For someone your age Goth it is not good, these sorts of things are the things that young kids do for attention and when you do it you make yourself look a bit silly to say the very least.
Anyway personally I don't think that this thread and its contents are something that everyone on DS needed to know about, so maybe take thes sorts of thing to your local family doctor or some other professional as all puting them on here is going to do is give people more ammo to use against you or to throw at you when you are arguing with them
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Light-of-Aurora
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Joined: December 01, 2003
Posts: 602
From: NJ, USA
| Posted: 2007-02-15 20:28
I'm really hoping you won't see this as just a caustic remark, but...
You should feel pretty disgusted with yourself for wanting to commit suicide; it really doesn't help. Not only will you be ending your life (you live in America, how bad can it be), you'll be making the lives of people you know that much more dismal.
My personal view on it is that to want to commit suicide is to be weak; that you can have so much pity for yourself that you need to go so far.
But in any case, I really hope you get through this, and I wish you the best of luck.
If any mod thinks I wasn't constructive then please delete this post, because as the author I can't tell. :/
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Durlan Katz
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Joined: August 29, 2005
Posts: 150
| Posted: 2007-02-15 23:11
LOL, first i thought it said "NOT a cry for attention"...
..oh wait....
[ This Message was edited by: Durlan Katz on 2007-02-15 23:12 ]
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-Flipasaurus Wench-
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Sundered Weimeriners
Joined: August 28, 2002
Posts: 449
From: 44° North, 88° West
| Posted: 2007-02-15 23:19
Shouldn't you be focusing on getting better, not on posting crap a forum which is so OBVIOUSLY crying for attention.. even if you say it isn't? Why post something if you don't want people to read it ?
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Peter Wiggin
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Joined: November 10, 2005
Posts: 636
| Posted: 2007-02-15 23:29
lol, what you have is similar to what I have, and if there is one thing i have learned... the only way you can get better is if you keep these things between Close friends and counsellors. Posting this in a gaming forum (no matter how good the community is) is bound to attract posts that wont help you.
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Ospolos
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Joined: January 31, 2004
Posts: 567
From: ON, CANADA
| Posted: 2007-02-15 23:31
Well, good luck.
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Borgie
Chief Marshal
Pitch Black
Joined: August 15, 2005
Posts: 2256
From: close by
| Posted: 2007-02-15 23:34
wow goth.. get a life and stop wasting posts for your self pity
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Enterprise
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Joined: May 19, 2002
Posts: 2576
From: Hawthorne, Nevada
| Posted: 2007-02-16 00:56
Really if you don't have anything kind to say dont say it.
Because I have ALOT of really UNKIND things to say...
Even so a more proper message would be:
This topic is asking to be flamed. It really is. Its like a small child on its knees begging to be. Im suprised it hasnt yet. (glad thought).
Goth really, even if you don't intend this to be a cry for attention it is in reality, this was not the best place to post your traumas.
Infact, it would be better just to keep it between those you know will show their care, rather than onto a game forum with a community of rabid dogs that have and will again, chew you to pieces.
I do hope that if such things really are driving you up the wall, that you do get better, and get help most of all;and perhaps come back to us less annoying. 
-Ent
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Sixkiller
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Joined: May 11, 2005
Posts: 1786
From: Netherlands
| Posted: 2007-02-16 01:09
well good luck with getting help about it, but this still kinda was a cry for attention:P
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